Sorry I have been absent for almost a year, it was a rough one on me, and my family, in so many ways. 2014 was an all-hands-on-deck fight-to-survive kind of year in my life. My children and I faced a lot of changes and challenges last year, nothing seemed to remain constant for very long. I found the Goddess Kali a very familiar companion as she danced her dance of destruction in my life, so that there was room for the new, the better, to grow. I held onto a hope of creation through destruction for the last half of 2014, just waiting for the year to be over.
Just after midnight on January 1st 2014 I read cards for everybody that was at my house, including myself. Everybody had a mix of good and possible things to watch out for in the coming year. Everybody except me! I had three cards turn up and they were all warnings. That left me with a pretty bad feeling, but I’m a naturally positive person so I shrugged it off and continued with my celebrations, and then threw myself fully into the new year. I really wish I hadn’t shrugged it off, and pretty much forgotten about it by the next day. I wonder if I could have prevented some of the turmoil of the year if I had paid attention and heeded those warnings.
To quickly sum up my year…. my partner of three years, and good friend of 20, betrayed me with my new close friend and confidant and then abandoned me and my girls in favour of the childless, “cheaper”, “responsible free’ (what ever that is!) life, plus he blamed me for everything that went wrong, including his own decisions and actions; the financial turmoil caused by my partner leaving; the demands of single parenting plus the emotional turmoil of my destroyed engagement caused my business to flounder and wither after two hard years of dedicated work to build it into something that was starting to thrive; I had to have roommates move in and the pain, joy and changes that come with them moving in, adjusting to new people in our household and then to have them move out again a few months later, and another set of roommates moving in; I started a new job outside of the house to support my family and even though it was flexible and I could some days working from home, it turned out to be a lot more than the original job description had described and it was stressful; working my ass off while getting paid much less than I should have been for the job I was doing, and then getting laid off with out notice right before the winter solstice season started: I’ll never work contract again with out a written contract (lesson learned!); and dating disasters, of course. On the positive, I did meet a wonderful man, who I have become really close to, though I have decided I’m off relationships for some time; and through the tragedies, I leaned on friends and I really learned who my true friends are, and we are even closer now. And I’m so grateful that the universe provided me with ways to prevent having to uproot my kids and move out of the house we had been living in for 3.5 years.
You know it wasn’t just for me that had a bad 2014, either. I’ve heard many people comment on how 2014 was difficult for them, and/or some one they knew. It was a huge year of change and upheaval and, hopefully, growth for many people.
So, what did I choose to take from that crap-tastic year? I chose to learn some important lessons from all the things that went wrong in 2014. Lessons learned…. and hope to not be repeated. But I also chose to spend as much of that year being grateful, truly grateful, for everything that I did have that was positive in my life. That was a very valuable lesson that I will cherish and remember for the rest of my life.
My card reading after midnight on New Years Eve/New Years Morning 2015 took me nearly 2 hours to complete and left me so excited for the year to come I ran into my roommates room and bounced on the bed to wake him up and tell him the good news. If my other roommate had been home, I’d have done the same thing to her too, I was so thrilled. I had a lot of cards turn up, many good and positive ones, with a few warnings thrown into the mix. It wasn’t all happy, prosperous, and positive; but that’s ok, because if everything was just fine, it would probably be a boring year. And in reality I still have quite a few situations that need to be dealt with from last year before my life can settle back down completely. But the whole feeling of this reading was positive and uplifting. A million times better than last year’s reading!
As the New Year kicked off, during the first few days I noticed how positive my home was too, and my life, and how all the spells in the Almanac were about joy, happiness, and abundance for the coming year. It was pretty amazing and encouraging. What a great way to start a new year!
I now look forward to seeing what this year has in store to replace the things that were swept from my life. Its exciting to look ahead; to wonder, and dream. And to visualize those things I would like to manifest in the future. It is wondrous to experience a life filled with possibilities.
I’m also taking charge and making changes in the areas of my life that I do have control of. I’m opening myself up to growth, both personally and spiritually,and I’m taking steps to add successful habits and healthy choices into my lifestyle. I’m setting reminders to eat while working, and making sure I drink lots of water. I’m trying to walk more; by myself, with my dogs, with my roommate and with my girls. I’m going to bed earlier and getting up earlier. Oh boy, does waking up at 6 am suck! But I feel so much better if I do, and I tend to accomplish more in my day. Yay, productivity!
For 2015 I am committing to my blogging on Moonbeam Momma. Being a Pagan Parent is something that is very valuable to me and greatly influences the way I live my life. I’ve struggled with how to be a pagan parent since I started walking my path when my oldest daughter was just a year old. It’s much easier when you’re children are younger, but the challenges increase exponentially as they get older. I don’t want to walk this journey alone, and I want to help support others like myself. Parents who are looking to raise children in a way that respects them as individuals, the magickal little creatures that they each are, and helps to foster not only strong imaginations, but an open-mindedness that is so desperately needed in the world we live in today. Parents raising children to be aware of connections: connections within themselves, connections with others both far and near, connections to the environment, to the animals and trees, to the planet, to the universe and to a power that is greater than us all.
So to you, I commit to adding one post a week. I hope you will read them, find inspiration, maybe learn something new, and leave me and the other readers comments; so that together we can raising a generation of amazingly connected open minded self aware human beings. Imagine that world.
Yeah, 2015 is going to be awesome!
How was your 2014 Year? Does this year feel like it’ll be different than the last one? Do you do New Year readings too? If so, what deck or method do you use?
These are the cards I use on New Year’s Eve, but not my layout!
Tell me in the comments, how was your New Year’s Eve? How are you feeling about this new year ahead of you and your family coven?
May the positive possibilities of the Maiden Year shine upon you as you travel your path! And may the Goddess hold you close and laugh with you thought the whole year.
Blessed Be!
Moonbeam Momma 